What Now?!

 Rambling starts here:

I'm a walking disaster of my own life. I don't know what's going on with this life of mine. If it's still worth it to be me or is still worth it that I'm still breathing. I sound depressed, I do, am depressed at the moment.  Not having an OJT is at the top reasons why. It's freaking January already, for christsake! Am I not worth it?!

I hate what's going on right now. How I acted with this kind of problem. I AM A LIVING COWARD. I easy give up things. I wish to end this chaos in my life. Please God, please help me. :(

On the contrary, I am posting my recent picture taken the first day of the year for no apparent reason. I dunno what's gotten into me. I hope the next time I will post I have a good news to tell. Hope and wish things will work out with God's perfect timing.